I'm generally a great sport about everything. I am very accepting. I'm a change agent when I want to/need to be.
Right now I am very upset. Maybe later I'll detail all the health stuff I've been through with the body pain and the diet changes and the medical procedures with no conclusions. But right now, I just need to vent about this crazy body. God, why did you give us such amazing vessels, only to allow society's conventional modern-day eating routines to just mess it totally up? 10,000 years ago, I'm sure we didn't think we were doing anything wrong when agriculture started happening. I'm sure that the people creating GMO goods KNOW they are doing something wrong, and all the other people whose jobs are to promote very bad things for our health that are just causing more and more allergies/intolerances so that people live in pain and causing increased diseases at astronomical rates.
I've been reading, researching, googling, for weeks and weeks now, so I've accumulated a lot of knowledge about healthy lifestyles, healthy eating, all the shit that's in our food that shouldn't be, so much more. I have no idea what I am allergic/intolerant to now. I thought the answer was easy. I found some good groups that were hard to give up, but I did it. Currently, I'm trying to give up another big lump of foods (anything with gluten) but I"m doing it. I'm trying to make changes to solve the problems happening to me on a constant, daily basis. Now, who knows, I just might have an allergy like corn and that is in every freaking product in any freaking form you could dream up. I thought tomatoes would be hard. I miss them dearly (along with the rest of the foods in that group I gave up), but it is so doable. My health is worth it. Now I'm giving up gluten. This is hard, but there are some substitutes out there and a lot of help and a community of so many others who are gluten free. So, what 4 weeks ago seemed nearly impossible is so much more possible and tolerable in my mind now. Now, if I'm facing another near-impossibility (corn)...I'm all of a sudden feeling so overwhelmed and sad.
Only God knows why this vessel is reacting this way, why I am one of the 1 in 3 people with gluten intolerance, why I am 1 in ? people who may not be able to handle corn (another grain, not a vegetable!), why I feel this daily pain and experience these constant other issues that disrupt my passionate goal to live healthy and well. The past couple of years have changed me and my mindset. What was once a nearly unfathomable accomplishment is now just a simple daily choice. As I know these other trials also are.
Today I am passionately thankful for the Internet, and for all the people who have been passionate about their trials and feats to post the information and advice that is helping me today and every day, the more I read and research and learn. I think maybe I should start compiling/posting the stuff I find, not only as a record for myself but in case my reading/research compilations should ever come up in someone else's search engine. The precious time others' have spent to type their knowledge and experiences has helped me and countless others in our searches for pain-free, get-on-with-life living. Eat to live, not live to eat. Only Jesus can give me the things I need to support me through this confusing situation. Inner peace and guidance. Loving, supportive family and friends. Companies run by people committed to producing truly healthy, people-conscious foods and products. Hope. Passion to pursue the solutions. Energy to pass what I learn on to others.
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